Sunday, May 30, 2010

Today i feel like a brand new woman.
i went to the local career expo to find out what exactly i should be doing with my life. the last few months have been giant leaps for me. Going back to school has been a true blessing for me.
and now i am thinking of university study and not just that but studying law!!! i never would have thought of it 7 years ago when i quit high school but now i believe i can do anything.

It is amazing how much your mind thought alters as you get older!!
Now i am witnessing first hand how much somebody can change just from ageing and also being around the right people in your life.
I am so blessed to be where i am now and to have the people that i now have in my life.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

today was one of those days where all i wanted to do is murder someone!!!
How many times did i have to be almost killed in my car because some dumbo doesn't have a clue how to drive.!!
it seems to me that people are getting worse and worse at driving, the government keeps blaming it on young people but seriously i haven't had a teenager ever almost kill me but in the last week i have almost crashed from the fault of people who are middle aged 10 times. it is ridiculous.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

growing up :(

Well last week my little munchkin turned 7 and while i ran around frantically looking for presents and organising a great birthday party for my special boy i didn't take the time to realise what exactly was happening.
My little baby boy was growing up.

Of course to other people growing up is normal and i should have accepted that by now but unfortunately a kid going from 1 to 2 or 5 to 6 just doesn't seem the same as a child turning 7. i didn't realise this until the following night when i sat down after a hard and busy day and just observed my child playing.

He wasn't sitting out in the lounge making funny noises or running around wild or even chucking a temper tantrum in which i would sigh and go and sort it out. No. He was sitting peacefully at his desk in his room building his new Prince of Persia lego. Now i know most kids do this on a regular basis but my child doesn't. normally he would have lego and he would get annoyed that it would be too hard and turn it into a gun or he would get bored of it and walk away.

but now he is 7 and for some reason this simple lego building hit me hard in the stomach. my little baby is gone. and it hit my harder later that night when i put him to bed and instead of the normal "night mummy" and a kiss i got a different routine "please don't squeeze my cheek mum i'm not a baby anymore" and then a kiss on the cheek followed by "night mum see you in the morning" he then switched his own lamp on pulled up the covers and settled in.
A tear rolled down my cheek how does a child grow so fast and where exactly did my time with him go to.

it took a few days but i realised my little man wouldn't be 7 this year if i hadn't had spent the time to help him grow and become the champ he is today.
we have had a wonderful 7 years with some troubles along the way but we always stuck together and pulled through.

now we have many more wonderful years to come and i finally realised that my little man is going to keep growing. i just hope that we will keep the relationship we have.

growing up is going to be the greatest adventure of all :)

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

The beginning

So about two weeks ago i watched a movie called 'Motherhood' which gave me the cool idea of blogging!! i seriously had never even consider blogging before and thought i really wouldn't know what to say anyway.

So be prepared for a whole lot of jumbled mess while i get myself together and produce something that one day may be worth reading.

i think that for a mother and step-mother this is exactly what is needed in my busy and crazy life. A place to come when at the end of the day you want to talk about every stupid little thing but you don't want to sit and bore the ones you love. you want people who don't know you but who can tell you that you are not alone in this big ball of water and land and that your not the only one who is going slightly mad with the joys of motherhood.