The Lonely Boy

I watched out the window everyday,

to see a young boy often play,

all by himself at only six,

with only old and broken sticks.

I saw the other boys at play,

and suddenly saw them turn away,

when this young boy would shyly ask,

if he could possibly join their task.

"Oh go away!" they always said,

while throwing pebbles at his head,

and then one very rainy day,

i saw a girl skip past his way,

and seeing this odd little fella,

asked if he'd share her new umbrella.

I turned away and smiled slowly,

knowing this boy would no longer be lonely,

and just as i thought, the very next day,

the boy had a friend who was willing to stay.

Friends

It is truly amazing how much life changes from the school yard to adult life.

I always imagined what my life would be like when i was a 'grown up' at the age of 16 and it always involved the friends i had when i was in high school......i was going to go to university and i was going to live with my best girlfriends and go clubbing with mates and i was going to always be in the city going around the world on trips with besties.

Now i am 24 and life is whole lot different and nothing of what i expected........i have a 7 year old little munchkin and an 11 year old step daughter and i am engaged to a wonderful guy living in a typical family house.......i have a car and i never finished high school so i am now an adult student trying to get into university.

Life is different but i wouldn't have it any other way i am truly happy i get to spend the rest of my life with the man of dreams and 2 beautiful kids.

what i do regret is losing the friends that i once planned my life around.......it wasn't bad breakups or fights it was just life.........life got in the way bit by bit.

Sometimes i just wish i had friends around me that were like what my friends around me were before....the friends you laughed with over stupid jokes and the friends you told everything to.

It truly is amazing how fast and changing life can be.

The Engagement Party

well the planning has begun already!!

at the moment it is all about the engagement party. i have only ever been to fancy sort of do's for engagement parties but i am thinking of something simple and low key.

even though when i was little i dreamed of everything to do with my wedding as fairytale and glamourous now the time is here and i want everything simple.

have i really changed into a reasonable average adult or am i just trying to be one and not let this wedding and everything involved take over my life.

engaged :D

well today i got to officially let everyone know of my engagement :)

i can't believe i am getting married i am soooooo happy and can't wait to get started on wedding plans.

My partner proposed to me on saturday night 5th june 2010....it was sooo adorable and i have never been happier.

i will keep you up to date on the wedding plans :P xxx

Today i feel like a brand new woman.

i went to the local career expo to find out what exactly i should be doing with my life. the last few months have been giant leaps for me. Going back to school has been a true blessing for me.

and now i am thinking of university study and not just that but studying law!!! i never would have thought of it 7 years ago when i quit high school but now i believe i can do anything.

It is amazing how much your mind thought alters as you get older!!

Now i am witnessing first hand how much somebody can change just from ageing and also being around the right people in your life.

I am so blessed to be where i am now and to have the people that i now have in my life.

today was one of those days where all i wanted to do is murder someone!!!

How many times did i have to be almost killed in my car because some dumbo doesn't have a clue how to drive.!!

it seems to me that people are getting worse and worse at driving, the government keeps blaming it on young people but seriously i haven't had a teenager ever almost kill me but in the last week i have almost crashed from the fault of people who are middle aged 10 times. it is ridiculous.

growing up :(

Well last week my little munchkin turned 7 and while i ran around frantically looking for presents and organising a great birthday party for my special boy i didn't take the time to realise what exactly was happening.

My little baby boy was growing up.

Of course to other people growing up is normal and i should have accepted that by now but unfortunately a kid going from 1 to 2 or 5 to 6 just doesn't seem the same as a child turning 7. i didn't realise this until the following night when i sat down after a hard and busy day and just observed my child playing.

He wasn't sitting out in the lounge making funny noises or running around wild or even chucking a temper tantrum in which i would sigh and go and sort it out. No. He was sitting peacefully at his desk in his room building his new Prince of Persia lego. Now i know most kids do this on a regular basis but my child doesn't. normally he would have lego and he would get annoyed that it would be too hard and turn it into a gun or he would get bored of it and walk away.

but now he is 7 and for some reason this simple lego building hit me hard in the stomach. my little baby is gone. and it hit my harder later that night when i put him to bed and instead of the normal "night mummy" and a kiss i got a different routine "please don't squeeze my cheek mum i'm not a baby anymore" and then a kiss on the cheek followed by "night mum see you in the morning" he then switched his own lamp on pulled up the covers and settled in.

A tear rolled down my cheek how does a child grow so fast and where exactly did my time with him go to.

it took a few days but i realised my little man wouldn't be 7 this year if i hadn't had spent the time to help him grow and become the champ he is today.

we have had a wonderful 7 years with some troubles along the way but we always stuck together and pulled through.

now we have many more wonderful years to come and i finally realised that my little man is going to keep growing. i just hope that we will keep the relationship we have.

growing up is going to be the greatest adventure of all :)

The beginning

So about two weeks ago i watched a movie called 'Motherhood' which gave me the cool idea of blogging!! i seriously had never even consider blogging before and thought i really wouldn't know what to say anyway.

So be prepared for a whole lot of jumbled mess while i get myself together and produce something that one day may be worth reading.

i think that for a mother and step-mother this is exactly what is needed in my busy and crazy life. A place to come when at the end of the day you want to talk about every stupid little thing but you don't want to sit and bore the ones you love. you want people who don't know you but who can tell you that you are not alone in this big ball of water and land and that your not the only one who is going slightly mad with the joys of motherhood.